180 + Greek

I've struggled with some things as of late. These struggles include anger, frustration, confusion, heartache, pity, and disappointment. My respect for certain authority figures came into question--I had so many questions. I have resolved not to release information about the circumstances themselves to the World Wide Web, and I will continue not to not share in the writing of this blog. I do, however, want to explain my current condition.

I have performed an almost 180-degree turn in my response to all that went down. I still have questions, but I think I have more answers. Even now, I want to bow my head deep and enter fervent prayer over this because of my change of heart--a change of heart that can only be credited to God. My respect for the authority figures I mentioned is restored, maybe heightened.

I horribly pre- and misjudged. I feel so sorry. I love my leaders dearly. I have come to realize my role in all this: to pray and nurture. As I was praying in the early morning hours of Sunday, words from the Psalms came to my mind, and the thought came to me that maybe that is why God is having me learn them--to share them in comforting my leaders (Oh, my heart goes out to them!) as well as my personal enjoyment of them and for His glory.

"Why are you cast down, O my soul,
and why are you in turmoil within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise Him,
my salvation and my God." (Psalm 42:5-6)
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To the second part of my post, Greek has been meaty. I like Greek class anyway, but since we have started working through Ephesians, I have gained a new appreciation for the class. I love going through Paul's letter! I am learning so much about Greek syntax and Ephesians, and I like how Dr. McClain designed the work as a group effort. Koine Greek is such a beautiful language to me, and, of course, it is the perfect language for the New Testament, as the perfect God so perfectly chose it. New Testament Greek is so much more specific than English. It has admirable nuances, and the Greek letters themselves are pleasing to the eye. Am I rambling like a mad college student? I apologize.

I encourage you to learn Greek. It is time-consuming and what I like to call "ever-present," but it is worth all the time and effort you put into it. It can enhance your Bible study. There are things in the Greek New Testament that cannot be translated into English with its full meaning intact. Also, by knowing how to parse, diagram, understand syntax, and translate, you may feel closer to God's Word. Does that sound strange? Maybe it does, but that's how it is for me.

Please pray for me as I plan to do a couple things in the near future that will make me and the people to whom I talk vulnerable and of which are a heavy burden for me. Thank you.